back for good....

i'm trying to make a come back. i know that i have dinner to prepare, a diaper to change,  a four months old to bathe, clothes to fold, curtains to hang and the list goes on. everytime i tr was trying to write something, all sorts of things into my mind. i know i dont have many followers but hey..im writing because i just need to write. i forget how to hold a pen and i think it will be terrible if i forget to press the keyboard too, eventhough i do feel awkward. im just going to press the publish button anyway..let the grammar run wild. yes it's a shame....
im finally back with little star who will be celebrating his 3rd birthday in december and happy star who was born in march. life as a stay at home mom with two boys and a super busy husband continues

no more cry..

i just need to announce it to the world..LittleStar doesnt cry when i put him in his crib anymore....took us 15 nights to actually stop hearing his cry..
unfortunately he still waking up every 2 hours for feeding :( and end up sleeping next to me because i was falling asleep while feeding him..just wish that he will sleep longer soon..so i dont have to wake up and pick him from his crib anymore..feeding him while siting doesnt seem a good idea at the moment . perhaps i should just cherish this moment..yes, as if i have any other option...biberon is a NO NO..sucette  just not his favourite too.

Defrosting The Words

A long silence...it's been more than a year and I’m back with a little addition, I don’t dream that much anymore maybe because I didn’t sleep much too. Little Star make me fully occupied. I am surviving days of sleepless nights and dirty diapers...my conversation becomes limited...days passed by with only simple conversation with a five month old and a busy husband. My language "freeze"...my English doesn’t seem right at all...the sentences are badly structured, grammatically incorrect and I stuttered to find suitable vocabulary...yes...OH MY ENGLISH...

I refuse to speak English to my little Star...firmly saying that I wanted to treasure my culture which I couldn’t say much except for the "challenging" dialect...yes I am speaking the unique dialect only to my little Star. Another reason is I always want to have someone to talk to wherever I will be...there will not be a mute day anymore…our journey in rising a multilingual child starts here..

I was planning to blog in my first language but then I just need to always refresh my second language since it becomes rusty from day to day...I just need to keep up with it after draining my energy in graduate school..I still feel the need to acknowledge my so-called expertise besides living a new life as the "Monster of the house"...

Life is not just pots and pans or dirty diapers...although I don’t see myself going back to my old job...sometimes I do miss the environment. Not the working part but the coffee break, lunches and gossiping with some colleagues...Life changes in a good way for me.

Now I’m just going to write whatever I feel like...let it be about anything :)

*I’m writing this on the third night of little Star's sleep training...He was sleeping in his crib by my side for two months and then I thought that co-sleeping would be better for us since he constantly waking up for feeding every two hours or sometimes every one hour...I was sleep deprived..It worked well for us but now he's started to move and roll a lot during sleeping. I just couldn’t sleep in peace, worrying about his safety. So I think putting him back into his crib will be the best arrangement at the moment. The first night he spent 40 minutes crying and surprising on the second night just took him 10 minutes before dozing off. Tonight doesn’t seem to be easy...he's been crying for almost 30 minutes now...hope he will calm down and fall asleep soon. I hope this phase will pass by soon...listening to his cry is painful...HoneyStar supports this decision too...

Perhaps I should really plan my days now...trying to slot in some activities in my life instead of just nurturing Little Star. He’s still my priority but I love to do some serious writing and some routine exercise will be good...tones of weight need to be shed...oh...I envy those who lost weight while breastfeeding :( time to cut all those junks and dust away the cross-trainer.

*LittleStar fell asleep after 35 minutes*

New I.d Photo

Backbiting, fed up and makrout

Selamat hari raya! Saha eid kom! Eid Mubarak! Bon Aïd!

Eid was great but coming back to office after a long holiday is not so great after all. It's not just me feeling that way but I guess the majority do. Work is so-so, I mean it's normal for an employee. Office politics, backbiting tire me down. Honestly I couldn't tolerate anymore. Now...im trying to push HoneyStar to complete his study as soon as possible with the hope to migrate somewhere else. Is Malaysia is least better place than others? Maybe..But I do believe that there are other better places to live or even new places to explore. I've been bitten by "adventure" bug so I'm all for this travel around the globe. The only thing I would probably miss about Malaysia is my family or perhaps the weather too. i am not much into chilly snowy winter.
My ma is not feeling well and will be schedule for surgery next month. Insyallah. I'm feeling bad since I couldn't accommodate her. She refused to stay with me since my apartment is always empty during the days and I might be travelling for some field works from now and then. I pray for some little kiddos to tag along soon so that ma will agree to stay with me and of course I'll have a new profession as a professional homemaker. I could picture us doing some morning walk after HoneyStar off for work and me pushing the pram. We could stop and have a rest on the bench if she feels tired and we could chit chat from everything to nothing…J Insyallah.

Sometimes I wonder, will I ever miss my current profession later when I finally resign or not? All that I know, I will never had the chance to experience it again. As waiting for the time to arrive, I try to commit myself to it, finding job satisfaction and at least I could always sigh to myself…been there, done that...again. Whatever it is I don't see myself permanently slaving for these people. What will I do if the time finally comes? I don't know...all that I could think of is not rushing to office every morning and perhaps I could cook makrout whenever I wanted because I do have the space to do so... plus extra time to doze..ZZZZZZZ

HoneyStar received a box of traditional cookies from a friend who just came from Algeria and I was more than happy to see a makrout in it and of course it was shared with HoneyStar. My eyes even caught a glimpse of makrout while Reading a walk in life's blog entry. i simply love the combination of the semolina & dates...All these apparitions making me realize that I have an overdue assignment to complete...yes, making the makrout for the first time…

Green and Greener Duo

I don’t want to do it! Najeeno the green alien is just exhausted.

I am the green alien who looked greener each day. Things are always green here and sometimes I crave for the blue grass in the blue planet. Like people say “the grass always looks greener at the other side of the fence’. It’s already green here so why do I need to look at the other side of the fence. Somehow I do adore the greener grass at Mereeno’s territory. Yes I am married to the greenest alien ever who glows in the dark. A trip to his territory was really a blast. I was treated like a princess and the best part is I blend in. I don’t glow in the dark but I am GREEN so who cares as long as I don’t go out at night or even if I did. I would bring my “magic torch” with me. It’s kindda funny to see all of them in the dark. All those green lights and when they blink their eyes.... Such a panorama! More or less like fireflies except that they are green.

After a long break in the “glowing” planet, I and my alien are relocated in planet earth again. We are sent for a mission. The mission is to observe human’s family way of life. So here we are two green aliens in human bodies. We look like normal human except that we have only green clothes packed with us, but I do intend to add more colours to our wardrobe. Mereeno does not glow in the dark anymore except when you press his nose and of course I’m the only one who are given authority to o so :P like last night when the electricity was cut out for 5 mins. i pressed his big nose and..viola!..the house was all green. how could i miss that and I almost forgot that I have a “life-stand” torch which function well with just a touch. He is my life saviour. He’ll always will.

io lovo yo (translation=i love you)

Let me brief about the mission which basically to instill “green attitude” in human’s family. It’s not just the environmental consciousness but other values as well. Living as human is hard, especially in this part of the earth. Perhaps it will be different in the north. I would love to experience the “human’s life” in the Artic but was relieved to know that we are not chosen because the latest news I heard was saying those who are sent there need to be “penguins’. Hahahaha, pity Reeno and Beeno. I guess they must be the cutest penguins in the Artic. No wonder they had this awkward walking style when I met them during last summer holiday. Hahaha

My life as wife and professional is not easy. I am assigned as a typical equator wife which means I’m working 8 hours, 5 days a week and juggling after work life as homemaker. I am glad that even though we disguise as humans,inside, we are still ourselves . So life with Mereeno is not exactly typical equator. He helps me a lot with almost everything. I am glad to be hitched by that glow-in-the-dark alien.

Reporting from :2°56′9.84″N 101°41′20.58″E

To be continued....

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