A long silence...it's been more than a year and I’m back with a
little addition, I don’t dream that much anymore maybe because I didn’t sleep
much too. Little Star make me fully occupied. I am surviving days of sleepless
nights and dirty diapers...my conversation becomes limited...days passed by with
only simple conversation with a five month old and a busy husband. My language
"freeze"...my English doesn’t seem right at all...the sentences are
badly structured, grammatically incorrect and I stuttered to find suitable
vocabulary...yes...OH MY ENGLISH...
I refuse to speak English to my little Star...firmly saying that I
wanted to treasure my culture which I couldn’t say much except for the
"challenging" dialect...yes I am speaking the unique dialect only to
my little Star. Another reason is I always want to have someone to talk to wherever
I will be...there will not be a mute day anymore…our journey in rising a
multilingual child starts here..
I was planning to blog in my first language but then I just need
to always refresh my second language since it becomes rusty from day to day...I
just need to keep up with it after draining my energy in graduate school..I
still feel the need to acknowledge my so-called expertise besides living a new
life as the "Monster of the house"...
Life is not just pots and pans or dirty diapers...although I don’t
see myself going back to my old job...sometimes I do miss the environment. Not
the working part but the coffee break, lunches and gossiping with some colleagues...Life
changes in a good way for me.
Now I’m just going to write whatever I feel like...let it be about
anything :)
*I’m writing this on the third night of little Star's sleep training...He
was sleeping in his crib by my side for two months and then I thought that
co-sleeping would be better for us since he constantly waking up for feeding
every two hours or sometimes every one hour...I was sleep deprived..It worked
well for us but now he's started to move and roll a lot during sleeping. I just
couldn’t sleep in peace, worrying about his safety. So I think putting him back
into his crib will be the best arrangement at the moment. The first night he
spent 40 minutes crying and surprising on the second night just took him 10
minutes before dozing off. Tonight doesn’t seem to be easy...he's been crying
for almost 30 minutes now...hope he will calm down and fall asleep soon. I hope
this phase will pass by soon...listening to his cry is painful...HoneyStar
supports this decision too...
Perhaps I should really plan my days now...trying to slot in some
activities in my life instead of just nurturing Little Star. He’s still my
priority but I love to do some serious writing and some routine exercise will
be good...tones of weight need to be shed...oh...I envy those who lost weight
while breastfeeding :( time to cut all those junks and dust away the cross-trainer.
*LittleStar fell asleep after 35 minutes*
i just need to announce it to the world..LittleStar doesnt cry when i put him in his crib anymore....took us 15 nights to actually stop hearing his cry..
